We talk a lot.
But there is so few opportunities to actually reflect. To reflect, and really, with certainty come to a resolution on your life.
Life is difficult. We are faced wtih choices every day. Every day, we are asked by society, friends, our significant others – to give something of ourselves. To give something of ourselves, to people.
But also, who are these people? We hope they are people we love, and we hope they are people who love us. But at the same time, (I’m) always uncertain about this. What a difficult notion!
I think I’d be wrong to think that I’m the only one who thinks this. To be honest, this is likely the biggest conundrum for all of man. To devote yourself to people, to a cause, and to a purpose which is divine. Yet what defines divine?
Hmmmm. Now that, is also a great question… Very few people want to be that person who devotes their life to religion. Very few people want to be the one who defines themselves in one way, regardless of what others think. After all, once you define yourself in one manner, you do ostracize the other elements of yourself – at least to others.
So it’s a touchy subject. This internal struggle.
I’m thankful for this moment, and time to have the ability to write this on paper. There has been much going on in my life, but not what I would define as “a lot”. A lot has been going on, but at the same time, very little of it matters in life’s grand scheme.
Work – Days pass.
Love – Yet to be found.
Achievement – Present, but not of real value.
Growth – I continue to grow.
Probably the most important in all of this is Love. The ability to love something unconditionally and give your absolute best! To someone that matters. However, things get complicated. My version of love, is different than everyone else’s version of love.
My version of love (used to) reflect my parents – early in my dating career. My version of love still continues to evolve as I realize that it also doesn’t fit other people’s models. So then will there ever be actual “truth” in love and in relationships? I’m not sure. One thing I do know, is that I do love, love. And the ability to give myself to someone else. And the fact that I do want to give myself to someone else.
I think I’ll wrap it up here.
Love,
Jason
