Just reflecting on intentions. While having gone through an incredibly hurtful breakup, just for both parties involved. I was thinking about intentions, and how they guide us.
We weren’t able to communicate effectively, on both of our ends, about our deepest fears, our deepest desires, and recognizing that we loved each other despite where it may have differed.
I want that in my future relationship – when I am ready.
In the meantime, I want to recognize that my body felt something wrong. That we weren’t doing those things which were so important to being vulnerable with each other.
I feel like after a breakup, we might tend to overreact, trying to “recoup” the loss of our time with a partner, as if it’s something that’s to be won.
Whereas in reality, perhaps it’s not that. Although there’s so much hate between two parties today, or one sided – perhaps I did feel something, and with good intention, or “manifestation” if you will, out of this short term, extreme pain, there might be a future of our wildest dreams.
But only should the intention be there. Now is the time to put intent into this world, and rebuild what loss I have and what loss exists.
