We live a really interesting life.
I took a look at the current salaries in a couple situations:
Web Developer – $54,000
Mechanical Engineer (Canada) $63,000
Physician $270,000 +
Data Scientist $97,000
Meanwhile, I’m unemployed sitting at a gym. It’s 10:34 PM, and I feel fine. I technically feel fine and for lack of a better word I’m saddened by the fact that I can’t be hanging out with a friend, or someone to speak to. Most people are too busy caught in their own regimen to be social with other people. On that token though, I don’t know if I was with someone that I could be completely relaxed myself, just cause of the way/and the people I hang around with.
I see myself being content in various situations:
1. Being Committed to Being Scrappy and Figuring Out Things Travelling as I go Doing Oddball Jobs
I know that I’d be able to handle this more than other people. Or that it’s not completely out of reach for myself as compared to other people. Don’t get me wrong, there’s definitely a lot of hesitation at the same time. I’m definitely living in fear of accepting this as a viable and acceptable option. But hey, I could do it and there’s a part of me that does just want to work bartending.
Pros
- I think this scenario would better allow me to live a life of love. Loving the others around me and loving myself… This is only a hypothesis and may be untrue
- Being committed to adventure.
- Getting this feeling “out of the way”.
- I need to feel adventure…
Cons
- The unknown.
- Career -> It seems like everyone’s career is super random, but maybe this is the time to start developing a career for the future….
2. Working Somewhere as an Engineer in a More Normal Job
I’ve been thinking about this more. And it doesn’t seem bad. Working as an engineer, and committing myself to not just going home and paying rent. Saving every single dollar I can to really progress my real goal of travel and adventure. I realized this is a possibility after meeting a beautiful individual who does this herself.
Pros
- Sustainable
- Maintains a career
- Flex power in travelling and going to see things
Cons
- You’re going to have to sacrifice a lot of time on behalf of others.
- You might be unhappy, but if you find a better role, it might not be so bad…
3. Go Back to School
Go into something really hardcore. Aka the physician route, although I’m sure my criminal record largely precludes me from these opportunities. Maybe go into Quantum Computing or something, although I just took a look and that doesn’t seem great either… Or maybe become an underwater welder.
Either way, I think we all need the opportunity to re-invent ourselves and to feel like we are free amongst others. We see others ranking each other based on this, and it affects the way that we think. Even if we know deep down that it doesn’t really matter to us all that much.
Maybe it’s the fact we work in a society where so much stress is put on our ability to bring in money, and on social stature. I think I recognize this, and think that in the future, this is going to change my approach to how I live my life. It certainly affected the way I approached things…
I think my (shifting priorities) are now associated with:
- Getting to know my parents and my family again
- Enjoying my time with people I know – being present
- Doing things that I enjoy
- Setting up a bucket list of things that I want to “live” and do
Maybe this doesn’t sound so different. But I think it’s a bit more focused. A lot of people around me don’t realize that I spent a ridiculous amount of time learning how to program, and trade. That I took on an immense amount of mental pressure with my criminal record over 2-3 years, learning that I was abusive in relationships, and with risking a considerable amount of money in crypto.
I want a second chance, and know that our God, in whatever shape/form it may be, grants this to us every day.
Putting that in perspective, I understand where this sense of relief is coming from, and I’m wanting the world to give me a second chance with these learnings.
With regards to Entrepeneurial Endeavors
I’d really like to find a way to bring together:
- Travel
- Adventure
- Helping others
Into some sort of package. The only issue I’m finding now is lack of experience in the area. So maybe I have to explore this a bit more. But I’ll need a job of sorts to save for this. I’m really inspired by the story of Flytographer. Simply an individual named Nicole who started a concept of easy to find photographers on vacation. You can travel anywhere, and through Flytographer, find a photographer in whatever city you’re traveling in. Simple, quickly scalable, fun, and solves a clear problem. Really beautiful.
Thoughts of a Ho… Now you know…
